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A Journey, Part 5. Smoke, Mirrors & Machismo

From the few weeks now spent in the Middle East, we were already becoming used to the prevailing gender polarization that manifests itself in so many ways. Everywhere, the theme of men in the public limelight and women occupying the private shadows, was repeated. I noted in my journal that while just about every man smoked, I handn’t seen a single woman smoking in public. 

Leaving Damascus, we continued south and crossed from Syria into Jordan. Knowing that our entry to Africa would be through Eritrea via Jeddah, we approached the Saudi Embassy in Amman to see if we could get a transit visa, but were told that we first needed a visa for Eritrea. The closest Eritrean embassy was in Cairo and so a few days after arriving in Jordan we left the car in a customs store in Amman and took a bus south to the red sea port of Aqaba, to board a ferry for Egypt.

I’d given up smoking a little short of a year earlier and as a reformed smoker I will never forget the five hour bus trip to Aqaba. We were accustomed to non-smoking buses and trains, where smokers would take the opportunity of a stop for a quick fix. This trip was the exact opposite; smokers ruled the bus leaving the non-smokers to flee for fresh air at every opportunity. It turned out to be the same on trains in Egypt where no-smoking signs in carriages served a purely decorative role.

Once in Egypt, we planned to travel down the Red Sea coast of the Sinai peninsula and then across to St Catherine’s at Mount Sinai before heading for Cairo.  From Cairo, we would travel up the Nile to the delta and then down to Aswan, visiting the major historical sites on the way.

This was one of the most frustrating periods of the journey. If Syria was hassle free and hospitable due to lack of tourists, I found Egypt to be exactly the opposite. I don’t think it’s that the Egyptians are any less friendly than people from other countries, but rather that the abundance of tourists seems to have created a veneer of hardened individuals, intent on profit and well practiced at deception, that can be hard to penetrate and that unfairly shapes ones perceptions about what Egyptians are like as people. It’s not something that is unique to Egypt or to travel; Hidden agendas and deception are often present where vested interests exist and external or public buy-in is required.  I certainly see much of this surrounding the everyday events on today’s larger political, commercial, and military stages.

From the time that we got off the ferry in Nuweiba until we finally left for Jordan from the same port a few weeks later, we were subjected to a near constant barrage of misinformation, almost all aimed at parting us from our cash. Just trying to find out where the bus station was yielded half a dozen different explanations, in each case too far to reach on foot and accompanied with an offer to take us there for the best price. In the end we found the bus station ourselves, a short walk from the port. In this environment, we soon learned a few rules of the road, the main one being always to regard any solicitation with deep suspicion. But the downside of rules like this is that while they may offer some protection against charlatans, they also reduce the likelihood of genuine and meaningful interaction.

Some of the scams we encountered were elaborate. On one occasion, while walking up a main street in Cairo, a tout approached us with the usual offers for hotels and Giza. Almost immediately, a car pulled up alongside and a uniformed man jumped out and roughly bundled the tout into the back seat before confronting us. Claiming to be from the secret police, he demanded to see our passports. This all happened in a few seconds. Then he fired off more questions about where we were going, why we were consorting the man, and demanded that we come with him. I insisted that we were guests in Egypt, free to walk in a public street. As the exchange drew on and grew more heated, I noticed that he was becoming increasingly edgy. Realizing that it might be a scam, I started making more noise, demanded to see his identification and walked around to the front of the car to note the registration number. No sooner had I done this than he shot back into the passenger seat and they sped off. Looking back, I shudder to think what might have happened had we got into that car. This wasn’t the safest time to be travelling in Egypt – in the months leading up to and following our visit, 27 tourists were killed by extremists.

Although this was the most frightening instance of deception that we encountered, in Cairo the next scamster always seemed to be waiting in the wings. To make matters worse, it was nearly impossible to walk any significant distance with Hayley without lewd cat calls from ever present groups of youths, strutting their stuff and full of the bravado that thrives in the group and evaporates in its absence. The truth, I’ve found, is that while machismo masquerades as a public display of individual manliness and courage, in reality it’s more a mask used to obscure insecurity. When a large dust storm finally blew in, we were only too happy to take the train south to Luxor.

I’ve been fascinated by the ancient Egyptians for as long as I can remember, possibly because there’s so much mystery surrounding their endeavours. Starting more than twice as long ago as the beginning of Greco-Roman period, so much less has survived to shed light on how and why they did the things they did. In Greece and Rome, I’ve never had much difficulty in imagining the Greeks or Romans in their ancient roles, but for some reason I found this more difficult in Egypt. The sheer persistence of the kingdom, enduring for more than three millenia before Egypt finally became a province of Rome in 30 BC, seems alien in today’s world.

Of all the historical sites, it’s images of the temple complex at Karnak, with its massive graceful columns and numerous detailed carvings, that remain with me more than any other. In the statues and friezes we get glimpses into their daily lives and the truth that many aspects of their civilization were little different to ours today. This was a male dominated world, with records of only a handful of female pharaohs. Friezes showing piles of severed phalluses and hands are reminders that war has always been barbaric and brutal. Among the powerful at least, the fear of mortality and death was pervasive; It’s a telling truth that most of what we know about ancient Egypt has been gained from the elaborate tombs designed to ensure the smooth transition of the rich and powerful to the afterlife.

Today it’s hard for me to separate the cause of many of the ills that beset us from the history of male dominance in our societies. So many of our institutions, including business, government, and of course the military, have been designed for males, by males. Should we then be surprised that males continue to dominate? I think not. Institutions designed for intense competition, with conflict and dominance playing an central role, will naturally appeal to the male psyche rather than the female, which is centered more on nurture and cooperation. Despite this, the tendency is to regard this as a failing on the part of women. My view is that it’s not a matter of aptitude at all, but of inclination.

Instead of bemoaning the gender imbalances in our institutions and trying to alter women to partake and perform equally in our male dominated realms, I sometimes think we might be better off turning the analysis around to address other imbalances. Why is it the men who haunt our streets and fill our prisons? Who are those obsessed with power? Who dominate through use of force and violence? In South Africa, we’re beset by violent crime, but it’s not the women we’re afraid of. I suspect that if we males could somehow change our ways to leave our societies without violence and with empty prisons, then the gender bias elsewhere might disappear by itself, along with a host of other problems that plague us.

Sacrifice and the Karoo

Today was Human Rights Day in South Africa and this morning we joined a small group of people in Greenpoint Park to protest against the proposed fracking in the Karoo. Among the most basic of human rights is the right to clean and safe water, the very thing that fracking undermines.

My childhood recollection of the journey through the Karoo from Johannesburg to Cape Town was one of two endpoints and mostly nothingness between. It’s a long road – a little short of a thousand miles – of which the Karoo crossing makes up more than half. Growing up, I always thought of the Karoo as something one went through, not somewhere one went to. It was a stretch of the road or railway where you would turn up the aircon and find ways occupy the mind until the crossing was complete, or better yet, do the trip at night to avoid the dryness and the heat and emptiness.

I first saw the Karoo through different eyes in 1997. We’d driven 40,000 miles from London and were on our final stretch to Cape Town. Our journey had taken us through so many diverse places. Maybe it was my receptiveness to diversity having been on the road for so long, or maybe it was just the way that age allows us to appreciate the journey rather than the destination, but on that crossing I saw the Karoo as though for the first time.

I know some people love lushness and tropical fullness, but I would sooner have semi-desert than the jungle. It’s hard to put a finger on it, but there’s something about vastness and emptiness that resonates with my soul and I feel myself drawn to it as I increasingly find solace in solitude. Part of it, I’m sure, is that abundance has a way of obscuring detail, while emptiness enhances it. The Karoo, for me, strikes a near perfect balance between abundance and emptiness.

Nowadays there’s not a lot of wildlife to be seen if you’re just passing though, but it hasn’t always been that way. Less than two hundred years ago, this was home to the largest animal migration on earth, as vast herds of springbok, estimated at over 10 million individuals, trekked in search of better veld. Today, the Karoo is just a shadow of what it once was. The last recorded springbok migration was in the 1950s, when a few thousand buck moved from the Kalahari into Gordonia. With the farmers in the nineteenth century came sheep and fences. Springbok don’t cross fences. Gradually, the buck were hunted into obscurity and as their numbers dwindled, those larger predators that didn’t die out went into hiding as sheep replaced buck as the primary food source.

This is such a marginal and fragile region, with just about every life form on the knife edge between survival and extinction. It’s an arid area with frequent droughts where somehow the plants and animals evolved to survive and even prosper in the harsh conditions. Nature always seems to find a way of establishing a balance, but the introduction of sheep into such a precariously balanced ecosystem was bound to set it off kilter as overgrazing, combined with the selective diet of the sheep, took its toll to the point where today in many parts, ten hectares of veld or more are needed to sustain a single sheep. Karoo lamb, while favoured for its taste, is in such short supply that there’s not even enough to stock the supermarkets in Cape Town, the closest major city and market.

I think that sacrifice is part of life, but we should never forget what it is that we’ve lost as a result of the choices we’ve made. Where a loss has been great, we need somehow to etch it on our minds as a reminder of what once was but is no more. Unless we do this, we will lose forever the hope that we may one day regain what we have sacrificed. If we were given a choice today between a few thousand marginal farms supplying Karoo lamb to the privileged few in the country, or being host to the largest animal migration on earth, who would choose meat?

Just over three years ago, we spent a few days in the Karoo with friends and were shown a farm called Vogelfontein, by a local agent. This was at the end of a prolonged dry period and having over extended themselves, the farm owners were desperate to sell. Though we couldn’t really afford it, we scraped some cash together and became part-owners with my brother and sister-in-law.

Situated in the Northern Cape with the southern boundary on the provincial border of the Western Cape, it’s a beautiful farm with a rich heritage. Being on the escarpment, there are many ravines and even a high waterfall, though it only runs, of course, when it rains heavily. In common with much of the Karoo, the rock formations, colours, and vistas can be breathtakingly beautiful. There are no roads or other houses visible from anywhere on the farm, and the only evidence of today’s world is in the vapour trails of the jets on the flight path between Johannesburg and Cape Town.

There were many reasons for us wanting to buy this little piece of the Karoo. One was just to remove the sheep and return the land to nature, giving the naturally occurring plants and animals a sanctuary with room to exist and recover. But ultimately, my dream was to establish a refuge for us, especially for our then five year old twins, from the frenetic clutter of our life in Cape Town; Somewhere that we could go to and experience a way of life that we could juxtapose against our everyday lives and to allow the message to seep in that it doesn’t have to be this way.

Many of the relics on the farm tell the tale of a very different life and perspective to what we now have, and a time when the only resource to be had in abundance was time itself. For lack of steel, rocks were cut to make fence poles. Beaufort shale, so abundant in the region, was the staple resource used to construct stone houses, boundary walls, and dams. Large kraals, made from hand-cut, packed stone, speak of times when livestock needed to be corralled to stave off predators. I’m not particularly nostalgic by nature – in reality I love and thrive off technology and I founded and run a technology company – but I often look at our lifestyle today and try to set it against the lifestyles of previous generations in an attempt to gain insight into the price we’ve paid for they way we now live. My overwhelming feeling is that we’ve sacrificed time for material and that the more material we accumulate, the more it consumes our time in a seemingly never-ending feedback loop. The common phrase that time is money is a misnomer. The truth, I think, is that life’s most special moments are made almost entirely by giving time to allow the things that money can’t buy, to happen. If so, the paradox is that time is priceless and its true value is only realised when it’s freely given.

One of the most wonderful things about the Karoo and this part of it in particular is the night sky. In this dry area, about 1500 metres above sea level and hundreds of miles from the nearest large city, the stars at night are any star watchers dream as they literally saturate the sky. South Africa’s largest telescope (SALT) is a short distance away, just on the Fraserburg side of Sutherland, and the region is favoured to host the proposed Square Kilometre Array (SKA) – the largest radio telescope in the world that will enable us to see further into space than ever before. We always take our little telescope on our outings to the farm and are never disappointed.

But all’s not well in the Karoo. With the increasing pressure to mine the earth for ever more fossil fuels, the promise of large deposits of natural gas in the deep shales of the Karoo has become a prize too great to resist and there are several corporations with applications pending to do exploratory drilling.

I find it sickening that there appears to be no rational or moral limit to the price we’re prepared to pay for more oil and gas. Historically, we’ve always been able to get enough from relatively simple wells, but as demand and prices have increased we’ve turned to increasingly extreme and risky methods to obtain our fuel. As I write this, Shell are scaling their operations in the Arctic ocean and it seems that deep sea arctic drilling is only a matter of when as opposed to whether. This despite the certainty that a major oil spill in the harsh conditions of the fragile Arctic could be impossible to contain or recover from. Canada, formerly one of the world’s most environmentally progressive countries, has suddenly had a change of heart and abandoned all related morality as the the reality of the largest oil reserves outside of Saudi Arabia has set in and the greed from short-term tar sands profit has taken hold. The Athabasca river flows through the middle of the tar sands and drains into the fragile ecosystem of the Peace-Athabasca delta, the largest inland boreal delta in the world. It already has vastly elevated levels of carcinogenic, tar sands derived toxins, even though the scale of the current tar sands operation is just a hint of what it’s planned to be.

The fracking planned for the Karoo is no less extreme than Arctic drilling or Canadian tar sands, and in an equally fragile environment. Hundreds of thousands of wells will be drilled, each first vertically for several kilometres to reach the gas bearing shale layer, then horizontally within that layer. Up to 20 million litres of water, mixed with sand and toxic chemicals including benzene, toluene, xylene and ethylbenzene, are injected under immense pressure into each well to cause the fractures that release the gas trapped in the shale. Most of this toxic fluid gets blown back to the surface as the gas is released, where it’s retained in open earth dams. On the way down, the wells pass though the water table and steel casings are inserted into the well bore to prevent contamination of the ground water.

Quite apart from the vast use of water, there are so many modes of failure in the fracking process that it would be flattering to call it risky. Storms, floods and other natural processes can and will cause the earth dams to fail. Poorly installed casings can result in the fracking fluids being injected at high pressure into the aquifers. Even with properly installed casings, how much do we really know about the minute detail of the sub-surface geology? It only takes one small fissure linking the gas bearing shale to the aquifer, to create a bridge by which the toxins can diffuse into the ground water. Any past earthquakes, for example, could have left such fissures, just as any in future can damage the casings. There are numerous hot springs in the Karoo which span from the surface to strata several kilometres below. In the USA, about half a million wells have been drilled in the past decade and countless cases of groundwater contamination exist and have been confirmed by studies and the Environmental Protection Agency. This is no surprise at all and I expect many more to come with time. The earth is not inert and over time every single casing will fail. Of course the gas companies deny findings of contamination, but then they would; no matter what they say, aquifers polluted in this way are impossible to clean.

Coincidentally, tomorrow is World Water Day. The animals and people in the Karoo depend almost entirely on groundwater for their existence and it will be the animals, the poorer people, and future generations who will pay the highest price for the damage that fracking will do to the Karoo. In the spirit of the South African Dream, will the government uphold our constitution by taking the high road and saying no fracking, or will we go the way of Canada and sacrifice our morality for a few years of energy from the Faustian bargain that is shale gas?

My dream for the Karoo is that one day it will once again be home to vast herds of springbok, free to roam and migrate as they once did. It’s not an impossible dream, but if it is ever to be a reality it will take strong and principled leadership. My fear is that if the shale gas bargain is accepted and fracking goes ahead, the sacrifice will be complete and the dream lost forever.

A Journey, Part 4. Reluctant Rebels

I’ve found that a near universal truth in travel is that the less touristed the area you’re in, the more special the memories will be. Tourism seems to have a way of hardening the hosts to the point where in the end, meaningful interactions become rare. With Western travellers being a relative rarity in Syria, the reception we received was always warm and often overwhelming. At the citadel in Aleppo, I remember being swamped by a crowd of excited and enthusiastic, scarfed schoolgirls, thrilled at the opportunity to finally be able to practice their English on real foreigners. Without fail, wherever we went, people opened up to us and appeared almost grateful to be able to share their views and perspectives.

Of all the markets I’ve ever been to, the souq in Aleppo is probably the most memorable. A far cry from the touristy Grand Bazaar in Istanbul, this was a market for locals, by locals, where in a labyrinth of dimly lit passages the smells of linen and leather, spices and incense mingled amid the hubbub of the merchants hawking their wares and buyers haggling for the best deal. But it was also at this souq that we had our first encounter with the male dominated perversion that taints so much of the Middle East, when Hayley was groped from behind in a crowd and to our absolute frustration we had no idea who the culprit was.

We spent two days in Aleppo before taking the road south toward Damascus. On route, we passed through Homs, now at the centre of the Syrian uprising and the scene of so much senseless devastation and bloodshed. Crac des Chevaliers, a stunningly preserved Crusader castle, lies a short drive west of Homs, and we spent a few hours there before doubling back and heading east across the desert to the ruins at Palmyra.

Up to this point in the journey, we’d met no other travellers, but in Palmyra we found a group of overlanders who had come up through Africa and were heading north. Apart from numerous other tips, it was from them that we got final confirmation that crossing through the Sudan was out of the question, making the route down through Egypt impossible. It was, however, possible to cross the Red Sea from Jeddah to Massawa in Eritrea. With no such thing as a tourist visa to Saudi Arabia though, the difficulty for us would be getting to Jeddah. After two days at Palmyra, we travelled back across the desert and down to Damascus.

Wherever we went, the Syrians we met were helpful and friendly to a fault, and my overall impression was of an industrious and content people just getting on with the business of life. Despite this outward appearance of normality in 1997, the truth was that under Hafez al-Assad, Syria had already been in a state of emergency, with draconian emergency laws, for 34 years.

It never ceases to amaze me what turmoil can lie beneath the placid facades of our existence. Things often are not the way they appear to be and even in the most oppressive and difficult of circumstances, we always seem to find ways to go about our lives under the pretense of normality. It’s almost as though we have a built-in ability to adapt ourselves in order to be able to continue functioning normally despite adversity, even to the point of denial of the adversity itself. We’re complex beings and I suspect it’s probably a survival mechanism that we’ve carried along with ourselves for eons. The reality though, that suppression ultimately breeds rebellion, is inescapable. Over time, like a river dammed, the pressure will build to the point where the smallest of cracks will cause a rupture. Unless it’s dissipated, sufficient time will always bring a reckoning and it’s just the mode of release and the way it’s dealt with that varies.

On Assad’s death in 2000, the status-quo remained intact as power passed to his son Bashar al-Assad. As the Internet grew, access to it too was controlled and social networking sites were blocked. Should we be surprised that Syria is fast becoming the most bloody uprising of the Arab Spring? How can modern leaders be so deluded as to think that suppression can be wrought without corresponding danger of uprising?

I’ve often wondered about how and why revolutions start. Why is it that the people of Syria rose up while the people of Zimbabwe, for example, remain passive despite tremendous hardship and years of despotic government? I’m not sure I know the answers, but two essential ingredients of rebellion are certainly a deep discontent with the status-quo, and a catalyst to unite and mobilize the discontented. Maybe in Zimbabwe the nature of the apparent affront is just not enough to push people over the brink, or maybe there are just too few people doing instant messaging to set the spark. But I suspect that in Zimbabwe it’s more a case of incompetent and corrupt leadership than widespread calculated and metered suppression of freedom and inalienable rights. The former may cause frustration, but seldom the outrage that can stem from the latter.

Rebellions, of course, aren’t limited to those on a national scale. We may rebel within our communities, workplaces, families, or relationships. All may manifest themselves in different ways and all bring with them the promise of change. Of all possible rebellions that we survive though, it’s those where we rise against ourselves that I believe are the most personally significant because they bring with them the opportunity to reforge ourselves, refine our truths, and realign our lives. Carl Jung believed that around the age of six, we bury those parts of self that we find intolerable and then for most of our lives we refine the persona that we choose to present to the world. As the persona diverges from our inherent sense of self, tension increases to the point where it begins to tear apart the fabric of our being and the soul begins to rebel against the person we have become. The emotional forces can be immense, but like any other rebellion we have a choice in how we deal with it. Many resort to outside help. Some crush it by sheer strength of will and denial, but in doing so remain trapped forever. Ultimately though and as with all rebellions, I believe that the only sensible approach is to come to understand the backdrop of the conflict and embark on a course of reconciliation, in this case between what we are and what the soul wants us to be. Following his own midlife, Jung spent the remainder of his years dedicated to his understanding of self, a course echoed by his famous mantra “know thyself”.

I see humankind at a crossroad that has many parallels with what we experience at midlife. As people, we have deviated so far from our essential nature that it’s creating massive strains in our societies as we see what’s happening and find it morally reprehensible and irreconcilable with what we know to be right. And it’s getting worse. Despite the spin, our leaders are making no real effort to change our course and get us off the road to apocalypse. Every year brings more devastation to nature, more species marginalized or extinct, an increasing gap between rich and poor, and more war. We have got here because of our obsession with power and greed. Never before in our history have the choices facing us been of such scale and impact.

I’m not a believer in violent uprisings and my fear for Syria is that like almost all violent revolutions of the past, Assad’s passing will only result in oppressive rule yet once more, albeit by a different party, and the the cycle of violence will ultimately repeat itself. In this sense, this is why we were so fortunate in South Africa where where the transition to democracy, under the guidance of great leaders, remained structured and was ultimately peaceful. But even here, 18 years on from the first democratic elections, the corrupting effect of absolute power and the obsession with its retention is increasingly evident.

Today’s headlines report fresh massacres in Homs and my heart is with the people of Syria. They deserve so much more.